Why Did I Start This Journey and This Blog?

Benedicamus Domino!

What has prompted my decision to try to live in a more joy-filled way? This is a good question and requires some length in which to answer it.

Firstly, it must be noted that i have generally been a person who has sought for wonder and beauty in life. I have often done things which seem impulsive or frivolous, but they have all been done in the name of joy, in the name of finding the truth about myself and about why I'm here on this planet. I have traveled on a few different spiritual paths throughout my life, and have experienced both love and loss at a relatively young age. At twenty-four years old, I considered myself a widow, for while it was true that my fiance and I were not married when he passed due to Cancer, it was as though a part of my body or soul had been amputated, and it was very difficult to find a way to go on.

However, there was a moment about a year and a half after his death when I suddenly felt flooded with a buoyancy that I had not been able to feel for a long time, and this conviction that filled me told me that I was still here and that here was right where I needed to be. It has ebbed and returned again and again, as is the nature of most things in this life, but it is this conviction that I want to find in life again. It is courage and optimism that I am missing, and it is time for me to find that person that I somehow have lost, that self which is still waiting underneath all the debris of living every day.

As to the reason I started this blog, well, I find that when I write about myself on a daily basis, I have to put my money where my mouth is. I'm accountable to myself and to anyone who reads this blog. I'm not going it alone. So, this blog will hopefully contain a pinch of whimsy, a dash of wisdom and a whole lot of common sense, because I find that one of the greatest ways to cut through all the stuff that stands in the way of joyful and eucharistic living is to use common sense wherever possible. And so, dear reader, I thank you for participating in this journey with me, and I hope you find it as much of a voyage of discovery as I do.

Deo Gratias!